Meaningless

My eyes avert.
My lips compress.
My mind shuts.
My heart chills.

This is what happens when we come into contact.

Yet.
I remind myself.
I should learn to let go of the negative emotions you evoke from within, because really.

You don't mean a thing.

Rotten Egg

When you struggled,
When you faltered,
When you got confused,
When you lost your way.

I offered my hand.
I offered my mind.
I offered my time.

I know I didn't have to.
You know I didn't have to.
The whole world knows I didn't have to.
Yet, I did.

Today.
You made me wish I didn't.
And had left you to rot all by your miserable self.

TQ

There are some people who make us smile.
There are some people who make us giggle.
And then, there are people who make us throw our head back and laugh till our tummy hurts.
Just by being themselves. With us being ourselves.

Thank you for those people in my life.
Words cannot describe how much of a difference you make to my days.
My life.

Reflections of 2012

A little belated but somehow, a must.

***
Some stuffs stood out, some blended in uneventfully.
Top 3 lessons for 2012.


#1: Being strong
I've always known that I am strong. Folks constantly tell me I am strong. But in 2012, my emotional and psychological strength was put to a big test. I was forced to a dark, dark corner of no return. Thankfully, I was able to push my way out of the dark and actually emerged stronger. Admittedly, I surprised myself.

#2: Moving on
Living and relishing life each day is a pleasure. Unknowingly but surely, that can turn into a trap too. Keeping us locked in a zone of delirium. And in a rather strange way, causing us to deny commitment beyond today. This 2012, it forced me to think beyond being happy today. And finally it dawned on me...I need to commit to being happy into the future too.

#3: Setting right priorities
For many years, I dreamt about getting my first million. In 2012, some lessons taught me how inconsequential that dream truly is .Well, for me anyways. So with new priorities in mind, I found myself happier, freer and most definitely truer. At certain junctions, it may get tough, but hey. Who wants an easy, boring life anyways?

2013 is definitely going to be different. It is already so different in so many ways and January is only halfway through!

Happy New Year, folks :)

I wonder why, I wonder how

You are like a fish bone in my being.
Stubbornly lodged for a long, long time.

No amount of rice-balls I swallow can dislodge you.
Nor the amount of empathy can shake me out of it.

Over the years, I thought I'd tire of you.
And eventually you'd find your own way out.

It's been almost a decade now.
Yet you are still here somehow.

When will you ever leave?
Or will you ever leave at all?

Most importantly, do I want you to leave?

 

Right here, right now

"They spoil me but you pamper me."

Life is about appreciating what we have, enjoying what we can, maximizing the possibilities, loving the now, embracing the challenges, smiling in the face of adversity, giggling in the presence of hiccups, reveling in the love.

Others may scorn and judge, but we stand firm by our decision.

Life is really too short to spend pleasing others.
There's already not enough time to please ourselves!
:)

The real test

... is not when things are rosy.
... is not when people are happy.
... is not when resources are aplenty.
... is not when opportunity is knocking.

But it is when the belief is strong,
the action/inaction is unquestioned,
the trust is unwavering,
and the love true.