Reason

I am a firm believer of the saying "Everything happens for a reason".
Always have been, always will be.

However, there will be days when this belief is challenged. Sometimes, even scorned at. Each and every time, I fight back. I hold my nose up high. Reminding everyone else how strong a believer I am. Even behind closed doors, there will always be slaps of self-reminder that there is indeed a reason for everything every time.

But today is not one of those days.

As I digest the news, I struggle to internalise my emotions and my thoughts. Deep inside, I know there is indeed a reason for this. And I would like to believe it is for better, brighters days ahead.

But today, all logic have been pushed to the back as my emotions forged forward. Selfishly occupying all the space there is in my mind and heart. Usually, there is an auto-reflex to fight back. But not today.

Today, I just want to crawl into your arms and cry.

The maybe cycle

In the midst of all the madness.
In the midst of all the excitement.
In the midst of all the confusion.
It hits me over the head. Hard.

And reminds me that Life is indeed so very unpredictable.
Never to stay too comfortable in one spot.
Keeping complacency at bay.

Am I ready for the change?
Am I able to meet the challenge?
Am I confident enough to take the step into the unknown?

The cycle begins. All over again.