The journey, not the destination

I am suspicious,
but I shall not dig deeper.

I am unconvinced,
but I shall not over-think.

I am skeptical,
but I shall believe in the benefit of the doubt.

I am weary,
but I shall keep an open mind for opportunities.

Despite it all, I am pretty sure it will all work out the way it should be. I just need to sit back and enjoy the ride.

:)

Him

I am not a religious person.

You told me that you didn't like how you are tested. How we are tested. I reminded you to take it as a challenge. From the One up there to test our resilience. To challenges and to changes. I reminded you that we can only grow stronger from it. After all, we have been through so much. We have survived so far. Why doubt ourselves now?

Days and nights have passed. I am now able to see past the emotions. And understand that it is indeed for the better. Perhaps you needed a training ground to grow stronger. On your own. With me, you are always spoilt. Without me, you will be forced to stand for yourself. Perhaps you can then learn to stand for us too? Less weight on my shoulders. Heh.

I am not a religious person.

But I do believe and trust in Him to throw us the right challenges. To steer us in the right direction. To believe in our strengths and our limitations. To believe in us.

I am definitely not a religious person.
But I believe in Him.

Reason

I am a firm believer of the saying "Everything happens for a reason".
Always have been, always will be.

However, there will be days when this belief is challenged. Sometimes, even scorned at. Each and every time, I fight back. I hold my nose up high. Reminding everyone else how strong a believer I am. Even behind closed doors, there will always be slaps of self-reminder that there is indeed a reason for everything every time.

But today is not one of those days.

As I digest the news, I struggle to internalise my emotions and my thoughts. Deep inside, I know there is indeed a reason for this. And I would like to believe it is for better, brighters days ahead.

But today, all logic have been pushed to the back as my emotions forged forward. Selfishly occupying all the space there is in my mind and heart. Usually, there is an auto-reflex to fight back. But not today.

Today, I just want to crawl into your arms and cry.

The maybe cycle

In the midst of all the madness.
In the midst of all the excitement.
In the midst of all the confusion.
It hits me over the head. Hard.

And reminds me that Life is indeed so very unpredictable.
Never to stay too comfortable in one spot.
Keeping complacency at bay.

Am I ready for the change?
Am I able to meet the challenge?
Am I confident enough to take the step into the unknown?

The cycle begins. All over again.

Fret Free

Some days, I fret and fret.
Some days, I allow the guilt to take over everything else.
Some days, I wouldn't allow me to enjoy myself.
Just because I fret and fret,

And one day, I realised.
I've gotten so engrossed in the fretting, that I forgot why I needed to fret in the first place.

So why fret?!?

The Speed Song

We breathe speed.
We eat and sleep speed.
We talk, walk and play speed.
And then when it comes to our biggest assets,
We hear a different tune.

Suddenly, it's about what's right and what's proper.
Speed will need to be compromised, you say.
BS, I say!

Makes me wonder if we really are about speed.
Gah.

Walk the talk

You keep close to the ground.
You keep the floodgates open.
You are not afraid to face the fire.
Basically, you walk the talk.
And that, we respect.

Thank you for your vote of confidence.